Im In A Trance

I first started thinking about it in like '99 then kinda forgot about it, then in '05 I saw a program for it and now in '06 Ive finally decided to give it a go... Desktop Djing. Basically put thats the name I have given to myself because of what I do... I take sample and whatnot and mix them up into song, but you wont see me doing it in public. Either way I have made a total of six songs at the moment, nothing momentous I assure you, a couple of them are good, namely Firefly Trance and Dawn Catalyst. At the moment I am mainly working in the Trance genre, but given the chance that I can find some very nice samples I wouldnt mind doing some Hardcore or Trancecore. Groovy. At the moment the track list that I have compiled from my long hours mixing and altering are:

Dawn Catalyst
Dream Sleep City (Beta Waves)
FireFly Trance
Fuck Like You Do
Goldfish Bowl Memory
Return My Medication

A few of the tracks are borderline ambience but most of them are trance with a little bit of hardcore in beat per minute only. They are all basically backed with a four-to- the-floor beat so its all good, nice head bobbin music I suppose. Im still doing photography but my inspiration for that has been sorta quelled at the moment, mainly I guess because its summer and I just see flat colours everywhere and in turn dull tonal ranges. But I have focused my creativity to my music and writing so its not going to waste. Not to worry though I pretty much shit creativity on a daily basis. Thats pretty much whats up with me at the moment.

Scatter Shooting II

I was sitting in my bed reading my book and I looked up for a moment and I started wondering to myself, why I ever really need sleep? If we didnt have the chemical in our body that makes us sleepy, would we ever sleep in the end? And I know some of you will say, we sleep for health reasons. Yes, yes I know, all that medical hoop-lah, but it still makes me think, do we sleep for our own actual sanity? Don't you ever feel like you are missing out on the world when you sleep? Don't you ever grow tired of those dreamscapes? Do you embrace them with so much love that you cling to them as your own little reality, and shun them away when they turn into nightmares?

I remember a dream I had last night. I was on a bicycle that was much to larger for me and I was fumbling around on a road with it, trying to keep my balance and I eventually fell off and into the grass and rolled onto a dirt road that lead to somewhere, which I dont know. Some might interprets this as me feeling like Im losing my balance in my life, that my life and relationship are the bicycle and all that good shit. No one ever thinks I might just like to ride bigger bicycles and have fun with them would that? Nah I dont believe that crap either. Do I know what its about though? Not really, dont care. Nevertheless whatever it was about, I had fun in the dream. Though I did notice one distinct thing that was missing from my dream... Laughter. I never laughed in the dream. Surely if I was having so much fun I would laugh, its just a common reaction to fun, you laugh. I guess I leave laughter for the waking reality and not the sleeping reality.

I yawn as I write this and I am no closer to understanding why I need sleep and why sometimes I go without. What will happen in my life that I wont know about while I have my eyes closed? Do the shadow men really exist, and I can only see them when I havent had enough sleep? Where does sanity and lunacy end and begin in the waking world, and why are things so sane that would be insane in the waking reality and vice versa? Flying without the aid of wings, thats crazy in the waking reality, yet perfectly normal in the sleeping reality. Maybe we all have it backwards in the end. When we are sleeping thats the true reality as it must be, no limitations on us, free to do as we please, free without constraints, and then when we "wake" we place limitations on ourselves.

Wake up Thomas... The matrix has you...

Well, the matrix needs to get me more pots so I can cook more raman noodles cause Im about ready to call the whole thing off if I dont get another pot goddamnit!

I should probably go back to bed, I only got up to smoke a cigarette and decided to type up some asinine thing, which this seems to be exactly that.

Scatter Shooting

While on my way back and from getting cigarettes I had time to think, as generally is the case, much like when Im on the shitter, or mowing the lawn or sitting in a doctors office, both the latter never happen often if ever. Be it as it may I had time on my hands, and as I am the kinda guy that never really shuts the fuck up, I was still talking, only mentally. To the point or at least one of them.
I got to thinking, there are two types of guys in this world. One, the lady magnet, much like Sean Connery, a mans man, and almost anyone would sleep with him, even straight men. Second, the men that dont have a chance in hell of being lady magnets. I think I fall in the first catergory, if I just shaped up took better care of me I could have almost anyone I wanted, good thing I already have her huh. As for the non-lady magnets, I want to say they generally have back hair. While waiting in line I was behind a man that had backhair that looks like he skinned a damn ferret and slapped him on his back. If the man ever goes bald... hes got it made.

I also kind of realised that since I never shut the fuck up, that comedy is a defence mechanism, and an entertainment option for me, I love to laugh, and make other people laugh. The one thing that I enjoy most in this world, that even sits further up the chain that photography and masturbation, is making my girl friend laugh. If I can get her damn near to the point of pissin her pants, my day is great. There is something in the saying laughter is the best medicine. I havent seen a doctor in years. Wonder if they still have my records... been so long I kind of doubt it. Basically saying, if you have a chance to laugh at anything, do it. Even if its yourself. Which brings me to a little story. I will make it short, I was drunk, the storm glass door was cleaned really really good and I ran into it and bounced off it like a racketball on concrete. Still makes me smile and laugh thinking about it.

What the hell is with the trend of diet foods, every food under the sun is now made to have a diet counterpart. People are afraid to be fat or something. I wish I kind of has more meat on my bone when winter shows its ugly face, I freeze so bad its not even funny. I get cold and have to put on a sweater when the temp gets around 20°C. And the diet pill commercials are about to drive me up the fucking wall, "Are you blah blah blah" No... Now get off my fucking screen. Or the energy pills. Just as annoying. They need that much energy, drink a Jolt Cola. Fuck all the pill stuff.

Heres a little speculation for ya, in Harry Potters last adventure... Harry and that bitch friend of his gets the ax, so all thats left is the nerdy red head dude. J. K. Rowlings axs the two strongest charactures. Hows that for a not so ironic plot twist. Ive been killing off lead charactures in stories for years. God I hate that writer, she makes a mockrey of Pagan ideals. But at least I wont have to deal with any more Potter fans for much longer... come on year 2007! I wonder how many kids are going to cry at the end of the book, like snotty nose and sucking up boogers, the whole nine yards? Will I read the book, nah, if I hang around anywhere long enough I will hear the whole story anyway, kind of works out for the best in the end, I dont have to pay money and I still hear the story, kinda like pirated music.

I wonder what I will thinking about next.

Comic

I havent drawn anything in a good while, but I decided I would post something that I decided I would do a few of, they are single panel comics of the most rudementry figures with what they are saying or something... like that, I figured I would do them over australian news and stuff, whatever I feel like making a social comment on without being all long winded or whatever. Anyway to the goddamn comic yeah?

Anyway. Yup there it is.

Gluttony

In the past few days I have almost drank a whole 12 pack of Hawaiian Punch. My parents are going down south to pick up my nephew for his "visit" and Im going to be left once again alone in my house. Most of the sodas in the house will be decimated in that time period. Well, except the diet Sprite... god I hate diet shit. My folks and I and my grandmother went out to eat at Chilis earlier tonight, I had a sorloin... Rare. Damn it was good too. Ive changed the banner graphic for yet a 3rd time for the blog, I might leave it like that. Hell might even leave the blog like it is at the current time... though I doubt it. Something will change here and there slowly. Just give it time. Sitting on my end table by my bed I have the books...
Im not really here by Tim Allen
The Hunchback Of Notre Dame by Victor Hugo
Inferno by Dante
Frankenstein by Shelley
Dracula by Stoker
Dr. Jekyll and Mr Hyde by Stevenson
Don Quixote by Cervantes
and Sanctuary by Faulkner
I wonder why that Tim Allen book seems so out of place among the rest.
I think I may give the Iliad a read again once I finish the Kesey and Faulkner books. Always did enjoy those poems. Hell might even give the Aeneid a read, if I can stand it for long enough. I dont care if they call them classics or not, some books are just fucking boring. Hell even the Quran was more exciting than Quixote. But other than that, I have nothing else to do, still need to finish out that one roll in my camera, god knows its so wound in there its gonna be a fucking bitch to load on the spiral. Might even shoot me some colour later on.

Evolution

I woke up kinda early today and didn't have anything planned whatsoever, so I decided I would work on this, and get it looking a little more hip and cool, whatever that means, I decided to try my hand at CSS, never really did much with it before, other than chance a few colours, and thats because I knew what I was doing with that, but this time I decided to give a little overhaul of coding, learned something new, its been fun.

Thats a screen shot of my work about mid-way through working with all the CSS. Hopefully if I learn as quickly as I think I do with this stuff, everything should work out just fine and fucking dandy. I decided to put down ol Quixote... ZzzzZzzz need I say more. Decided to read some Kesey and Faulkner instead, Im sure that could make up the page count. Thats it for now though, tell me what you like dont like about the layout and whatnot.

Back and Better Than Ever

I spent just about 3 hours working on this blog just to get it close to what I want it to look like, new header graphic, as well as footer, colour changes and rearrangments, a whole host of things.Thur has truely made a very versatile template. I finished the Anne Rice book, not to shabby, but wasnt that fucking great either. Now I have decided to go back to my classics, and read Don Quixote. Ive read some of it before, but hopefully it wont be as boring as The Epic of Gilgamesh, now that is a snorer. Dont really know what else to put, My sister-n-law jumped out a plane today, and had fun doing it, my gf ate a lot at lunch, which was good, I slept most the day, seems my vampiric qualities are coming back... sleep during the day, up all night. I need to change that, as much as I dont like sunlight I need to get out in it and do something or another. I hope everyone is having fun, and not drowning or anything like that. Adoniram stay safe, and stay off the side of the road man. It will be the death of you one day Im sure of it. I suppose thats it at the moment. Might find something else to talk about later on.